Saying goodbye is never easy..

On the forums that Stephen ran, there was always a thread where a person could list what song fit their current mood. It was a way of saying, musically, what one couldn't say in words. I particularly loved it, and was easily the most prolific poster on the thread. So, naturally, since Stephen's forums are all but dead now, I find myself wanting to share some song lyrics to share my feelings. So, with you, my dear reader, I will share this song.

"Now and Then" is by Blackmore's Night, and comes off of their "Under a Violet Moon" CD. It's short, simple (just an acoustic guitar for accompaniment), and bittersweet. I never really paid attention to the lyrics before. I always thought that it was a song sung to someone who'd died. I've realized now, though, that it's more of a message from one person to another after a failed relationship. When I realized that, it struck me deep, and I've had some difficulty keeping the tears out of my eyes when I listen to it.

I woke this morning to find another message fromt this person, and realized that I can no longer be close to the one in question. I don't hate, or even strongly dislike, this person, but I have come to the realization that this person is not who I thought, and that I cannot be a friend in this situation. Perhaps, one day, I will be able to talk to this person without feeling the euphoria, bliss, and pain that my mind has associated with them. For now, though, I suppose I must say goodbye.

( Now and Then, by Blackmore's Night )