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It has been over a month since I last posted on this journal, and I've not really posted much here this year, either.
Before I go into that, though, let me start by whining.
Why is it that when I'm off, I cannot sleep well the night before? I toss. I turn. I constantly wake up. I get indigestion, which wakes me up. I have headaches. Whatever it takes to keep me from sleeping soundly till morning. Sometimes, it's my fault, as I stay up late, and the morning sun around this time of year gets past my best efforts to block it from my window (at around 8am). But a lot of the time, this isn't the case. It's just an inability to rest when I don't have something pending. As you might expect, this was the case last night.
Anyway, I just haven't felt the urge to post like I used to. I still read it daily (sometimes, multiple times daily), and I comment from time to time. Yet, when it comes to my own journal, I usually decide "Ahh.. I'll do it later." Later invariably is when I'm going to bed, and then I decide "I can't now, I have to sleep".
I've also learned that it's not WoW's fault since, from May 1 through the 21, I wasn't playing WoW at all (I'd even cancelled my subscription). At the same time, though, I WANT to post, because it's nice to be able to go back and read it later. Looking back, it also seems to tie into when I had my surgery (I was definitely posting more before it, than afterward.)
So, what *have* I been up to? Well, working, sleeping, and trying not to think about work. The third option doesn't really have much interesting in it (a little WoW, some LotRO, book reading, movie watching, quiet time stuff). I recognize that I need to get around to that Top Ten movie list I promised back in March, as well as pics of my room (it's changed a teensy bit since I posted that I finished decorating, but not much). I guess I can break each thing up into a paragraph (or less), so you need not read what you don't wanna.
Work:
Work has been hell. While I'm getting used to the level of traffic that place has, I still feel extraordinarily stressed when I try to work in Accounting. If it's not "Anthony you need to finish faster", it's my fear that my CSM will take issue with how I do things. I have some days that are better than others, but I guess I've not honestly been 100% comfortable since I got to that store. Last week, we came up short, and the CSM is *convinced* that someone took the money, and that it had to be someone in Accounting. Frankly, I'm torn. I wouldn't mind not working in Accounting, but I want it to be on MY terms, not because they think I'm a thief (I worked Accounting on the day we came up short.. the CSM and her backup didn't, and I'm not the only one being looked at). One of the people who could get kicked out has been put in, and taken out of, the office two or three times. I don't know about her, but if I'm put out, I will *REFUSE* to go back in Accounting under the same CSM. I make no more money for being in Accounting. It's purely my love of numbers and balancing accounts.
Speaking of more money, I'm also rather annoyed, as it appears that I'm not even halfway looked at as a backup CSM. So much for the promises of upper management, eh? FUCKERS, all of them. No, I've not said anything to them directly, but it felt ill-advised to bring up that I am supposed to be making more money, when things weren't going perfectly. I realize now that perhaps I *should* have said something. Just another fuckup in my life. Lovely. Woulda, shoulda, coulda. What the fuck? I mean, I had a hernia that was affecting my ability to function daily. Was it the time off? Was it being expected to open like nothing had changed on the first of the month right after I came back from my time off? I don't know, but I *do* know that I need to begin weighing the benefits of staying there against finding a new job doing similar work (in the accounting office -- not the customer service part). If I'm treated poorly, I don't have to stay, and I think it's time I had enough confidence in myself to follow through.
WoW:
I played almost constantly during the month of April. I actually felt kinda guilty, since I figured if I was well enough to play, I was well enough to work (that is NOT true). I got Lliana (my paladin) to level 70, and got her pretty well geared in a short amount of time (helps when most of the regulars running Kara can absorb a healer in less than stellar gear). I got her epic mount, but never got around to working on Netherwing faction for her dragon mount. With the arrival of patch 2.4, and the Shattered Sun daily quests, I finally got enough money (without trying) to get Sluggy's epic flying. Also, I dropped Mining again, and picked up Engineering (yep, an enchanter/engineer). It seemed a good idea, as Lliana is a miner, and has her epic mount (and crusader aura) to get the ore Sluggy needs. So, Sluggy has the awesome engineering goggles and the Epic ROFLCopter (I can't help calling it that). Definitely makes not having much in the way of purple gear worth it. :)
Lord of the Rings Online (LotRO):
The guy who runs my local comic shop runs a LotRO Kinship (re: Guild). When I told him I had quit WoW, he mentioned LotRO. Since he had a free 10 day pass I could use, I decided to give it another shot. They've massively improved it, IMO, from the Beta I toyed with last year. You get last names at level 15 (of 50). Can buy a house at level 15. Get "outfit" slots on your character that allow you to equip gear purely for cosmetic purposes (so no more purple shirt, yellow pants, red shoulders). Get rest XP. Get a guild house (that's huge!). Also, and this is the best: it plays similarly to WoW. It's not a carbon copy, but basic gameplay is similar enough that there's no real learning curve. I started playing a hunter on Meneldor named Haydon, and he's level 21 now. I played it for most of the three weeks I was away from WoW. However, my interest started to wane some, as I didn't really have anyone to talk to in the kinship when I was on (see.. the thing about THIS kinship is that the leader has to have met you in real life for you to be invited.. thus, we all use real names in guild chat, and it's a lot more relaxed). So, I paid for six months of WoW, and prepared to get into that again.
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strieson and Pirates of the Burning Sea. He had waited for that game for over two years. Played in the Beta. Loved it to death. And the company in charge of it ruined the game for him by patching and patching and patching (and in turn, nerfing and nerfing and nerfing pirates). The last straw for him was the patch that slowed down pirates' xp gain, but accelerated it for every other nation (faction). So, he asked to check out LotRO. And he loved it. From there, he got mfsfreak to play, and suddenly I had 2 other people who'd be on when I was. So, I kept my subscription with LotRO going too. (The good thing is that I chose multi-month subscriptions, so each is significantly cheaper than $14.99 a month.)
Now, one thing about LotRO that I like is that when I've played a couple of hours, I can log out and not be bothered by not being "done" yet. It could be that this is a new MMO, and I don't know the game perfectly yet, but it's a refreshing change from WoW, which I've been playing almost constantly since May 2005.
Health and Fitness
For the past couple of weeks, I've been very bad regarding eating right and exercising. How I spent my economic stimulus check was to purchase a nice mountain bike. I got to riding it when I had time, and that cut into my WoW/LotRO time (which is fine with me). I started trying different routes, and was really enjoying it. Then, summer hit and I was facing 95 degree highs with heat indexes near 105. I didn't wanna kill myself, so I would tell myself I'd go early in the morning. However, I work most mornings, and when I don't, I've lately had problems sleeping (see first paragraph).
I am going to set up a schedule/plan, and begin biking again in about two weeks. At that time, I'm also going to have come up with a healthier way to eat. I've realized that convenience is the biggest obstacle for me. Some days, I just don't want to worry about making dinner. I want to toss something in the oven (pizza?), and eat. I'll be happy to take suggestions regarding how to address that. I don't usually get to eat in the morning (though I think I could manage if I tried). I get lunch around 11am normally, eat a light snack when I get home, and eat dinner around 6-7pm.
More has been happening, but it's mainly been the release of D&D 4e (and the campaigns that go with it) and an influx of new heavy metal (I'm particularly partial to the "new" Symphony X CD: Paradise Lost). More later. I hope this isn't too much at once. I want folks to read this. :)
Before I go into that, though, let me start by whining.
Why is it that when I'm off, I cannot sleep well the night before? I toss. I turn. I constantly wake up. I get indigestion, which wakes me up. I have headaches. Whatever it takes to keep me from sleeping soundly till morning. Sometimes, it's my fault, as I stay up late, and the morning sun around this time of year gets past my best efforts to block it from my window (at around 8am). But a lot of the time, this isn't the case. It's just an inability to rest when I don't have something pending. As you might expect, this was the case last night.
Anyway, I just haven't felt the urge to post like I used to. I still read it daily (sometimes, multiple times daily), and I comment from time to time. Yet, when it comes to my own journal, I usually decide "Ahh.. I'll do it later." Later invariably is when I'm going to bed, and then I decide "I can't now, I have to sleep".
I've also learned that it's not WoW's fault since, from May 1 through the 21, I wasn't playing WoW at all (I'd even cancelled my subscription). At the same time, though, I WANT to post, because it's nice to be able to go back and read it later. Looking back, it also seems to tie into when I had my surgery (I was definitely posting more before it, than afterward.)
So, what *have* I been up to? Well, working, sleeping, and trying not to think about work. The third option doesn't really have much interesting in it (a little WoW, some LotRO, book reading, movie watching, quiet time stuff). I recognize that I need to get around to that Top Ten movie list I promised back in March, as well as pics of my room (it's changed a teensy bit since I posted that I finished decorating, but not much). I guess I can break each thing up into a paragraph (or less), so you need not read what you don't wanna.
Work:
Work has been hell. While I'm getting used to the level of traffic that place has, I still feel extraordinarily stressed when I try to work in Accounting. If it's not "Anthony you need to finish faster", it's my fear that my CSM will take issue with how I do things. I have some days that are better than others, but I guess I've not honestly been 100% comfortable since I got to that store. Last week, we came up short, and the CSM is *convinced* that someone took the money, and that it had to be someone in Accounting. Frankly, I'm torn. I wouldn't mind not working in Accounting, but I want it to be on MY terms, not because they think I'm a thief (I worked Accounting on the day we came up short.. the CSM and her backup didn't, and I'm not the only one being looked at). One of the people who could get kicked out has been put in, and taken out of, the office two or three times. I don't know about her, but if I'm put out, I will *REFUSE* to go back in Accounting under the same CSM. I make no more money for being in Accounting. It's purely my love of numbers and balancing accounts.
Speaking of more money, I'm also rather annoyed, as it appears that I'm not even halfway looked at as a backup CSM. So much for the promises of upper management, eh? FUCKERS, all of them. No, I've not said anything to them directly, but it felt ill-advised to bring up that I am supposed to be making more money, when things weren't going perfectly. I realize now that perhaps I *should* have said something. Just another fuckup in my life. Lovely. Woulda, shoulda, coulda. What the fuck? I mean, I had a hernia that was affecting my ability to function daily. Was it the time off? Was it being expected to open like nothing had changed on the first of the month right after I came back from my time off? I don't know, but I *do* know that I need to begin weighing the benefits of staying there against finding a new job doing similar work (in the accounting office -- not the customer service part). If I'm treated poorly, I don't have to stay, and I think it's time I had enough confidence in myself to follow through.
WoW:
I played almost constantly during the month of April. I actually felt kinda guilty, since I figured if I was well enough to play, I was well enough to work (that is NOT true). I got Lliana (my paladin) to level 70, and got her pretty well geared in a short amount of time (helps when most of the regulars running Kara can absorb a healer in less than stellar gear). I got her epic mount, but never got around to working on Netherwing faction for her dragon mount. With the arrival of patch 2.4, and the Shattered Sun daily quests, I finally got enough money (without trying) to get Sluggy's epic flying. Also, I dropped Mining again, and picked up Engineering (yep, an enchanter/engineer). It seemed a good idea, as Lliana is a miner, and has her epic mount (and crusader aura) to get the ore Sluggy needs. So, Sluggy has the awesome engineering goggles and the Epic ROFLCopter (I can't help calling it that). Definitely makes not having much in the way of purple gear worth it. :)
Lord of the Rings Online (LotRO):
The guy who runs my local comic shop runs a LotRO Kinship (re: Guild). When I told him I had quit WoW, he mentioned LotRO. Since he had a free 10 day pass I could use, I decided to give it another shot. They've massively improved it, IMO, from the Beta I toyed with last year. You get last names at level 15 (of 50). Can buy a house at level 15. Get "outfit" slots on your character that allow you to equip gear purely for cosmetic purposes (so no more purple shirt, yellow pants, red shoulders). Get rest XP. Get a guild house (that's huge!). Also, and this is the best: it plays similarly to WoW. It's not a carbon copy, but basic gameplay is similar enough that there's no real learning curve. I started playing a hunter on Meneldor named Haydon, and he's level 21 now. I played it for most of the three weeks I was away from WoW. However, my interest started to wane some, as I didn't really have anyone to talk to in the kinship when I was on (see.. the thing about THIS kinship is that the leader has to have met you in real life for you to be invited.. thus, we all use real names in guild chat, and it's a lot more relaxed). So, I paid for six months of WoW, and prepared to get into that again.
Queue
strieson and Pirates of the Burning Sea. He had waited for that game for over two years. Played in the Beta. Loved it to death. And the company in charge of it ruined the game for him by patching and patching and patching (and in turn, nerfing and nerfing and nerfing pirates). The last straw for him was the patch that slowed down pirates' xp gain, but accelerated it for every other nation (faction). So, he asked to check out LotRO. And he loved it. From there, he got mfsfreak to play, and suddenly I had 2 other people who'd be on when I was. So, I kept my subscription with LotRO going too. (The good thing is that I chose multi-month subscriptions, so each is significantly cheaper than $14.99 a month.)Now, one thing about LotRO that I like is that when I've played a couple of hours, I can log out and not be bothered by not being "done" yet. It could be that this is a new MMO, and I don't know the game perfectly yet, but it's a refreshing change from WoW, which I've been playing almost constantly since May 2005.
Health and Fitness
For the past couple of weeks, I've been very bad regarding eating right and exercising. How I spent my economic stimulus check was to purchase a nice mountain bike. I got to riding it when I had time, and that cut into my WoW/LotRO time (which is fine with me). I started trying different routes, and was really enjoying it. Then, summer hit and I was facing 95 degree highs with heat indexes near 105. I didn't wanna kill myself, so I would tell myself I'd go early in the morning. However, I work most mornings, and when I don't, I've lately had problems sleeping (see first paragraph).
I am going to set up a schedule/plan, and begin biking again in about two weeks. At that time, I'm also going to have come up with a healthier way to eat. I've realized that convenience is the biggest obstacle for me. Some days, I just don't want to worry about making dinner. I want to toss something in the oven (pizza?), and eat. I'll be happy to take suggestions regarding how to address that. I don't usually get to eat in the morning (though I think I could manage if I tried). I get lunch around 11am normally, eat a light snack when I get home, and eat dinner around 6-7pm.
More has been happening, but it's mainly been the release of D&D 4e (and the campaigns that go with it) and an influx of new heavy metal (I'm particularly partial to the "new" Symphony X CD: Paradise Lost). More later. I hope this isn't too much at once. I want folks to read this. :)
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- rpgs,
- work,
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*hugs*
I heard about the missing money issue.... That sucks! Maybe things will get better.... Maybe...
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