See-saw days..

Things have been going pretty well for me today, really. I slept well, and even had a dream about work that was relaxing. Basically, my manager, my customer service manager, and I were transferred to a newer, cleaner, nicer, bigger store in a better part of town, and we all loved it. Interestingly, the store reminded me of another dream, which involved some store in the western U.S. and a monster that was causing it some trouble. *shrugs* No monster in last night's dream. :)

My heart began aching again today. Oh, I am feeling better over all, but sometimes I think of certain "could have beens" or just "almost weres", and my happy façade slips, just a little. Time will heal things, but no one ever said it was going to be an easy road. *shrugs* C'est l'amour. I just wish I could move on from these feelings. I think that they are gone, and that I'm okay, and I see mention of her boyfriend, and I feel a tiny little dagger pierce my heart. The daggers HAVE gotten smaller, though, but they cause bleeding nonetheless. (I may be emotional, but that's who I am, and if someone doesn't like it, then they can just move on. Plenty of people *like* me as I *am*. My soul *WILL* be revitalized and rejuvenated, and I won't have to resort to my true self going back into hiding under my armor, or rage masking how I feel.

I think that I really could have loved her with all my heart. Now, it's just a pleasant memory. Oh, I still think she's wonderful, and I wish her the best in life, but something inside really did die the day I learned I was not who she wanted.


"...And now, for something completely different!"
I got Dodgeball and Troy tonight on DVD. I *love* Dodgeball. It's a hilarous movie, and well worth getting. I saw Troy in the theaters, and it was great. The epic that is Homer's Iliad came to life very well, even if it was not quite true to the tale

I work 6-3 tomorrow, and again on Thursday. Then, I'm off for two days. On Friday, I will be celebrating slipjig's birthday. *wink* I will be up late Friday night, to talk to my Meimei, and then I'm going to go outside, and see Comet C2004/Q2 pass within two degrees of the Pleiades star cluster. On Friday, my mom will be making me dinner, to help me celebrate slipjig's birthday, and then Momma Dunn will be doing the same on Saturday.

:)

Dead..

I'm going to bed. I was up too late last night, and have gotten too little sleep recently. Maybe, if i wake up overnight, I'll do a longer post.

Work = not bad.
Life = not bad.
Happiness = pretty good.
Self-confidence = middle of the road.

Quickie..

Hey Stream folks, don't forget to log your ideas and opinions about the reunion dinner here.