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I got home, and found this in my E-mail:
Hey Anthony,
I don't think I'm going to be playing D&D anymore. I really haven't had the urge to play at all in weeks, and the weeks that I played I missed the stuff that I usually did wen we went over Jason's mom's house (I know, I can't believe it either). Thank you guys very much for letting me play. I warned you about my uber-short attention span :/
I really really appreciate your help. Have fun! See you around at the shop.
~Heather
Yup. She's quit. That means my Sunday group is at five people. (Heather quit, Rick has probably moved away again, and I doubt Stephen has time since he's running his own game now.) Sorry Alex, but I'm not going to add anyone to the game until I'm sure that the game's going to last. Depending on things, I might just take off during the time that Mike's out of town (until around Labor Day), since I've been feeling stressed lately.
While I'm enjoying putting the game together, when it comes to running the thing, I have no patience, and that sucks. I am hypersensitive about rules issues (don't try to help me look it up or quote it to me), people's alignments (as evidenced by the other day's post), and what I perceive as a lack of cooperation in the group (could be entirely my imagination, but I saw signs that it's not). I want to pick things back up, and I want it to be fun for everyone, myself included.
So, for the time being, fear the level 2 barrier. That's where we're stopping at for now. When I hear from Mike that he's back in town from his time spent with his folks in Virginia, then we'll start up again. Looking at a calendar, that puts it around your birthday, Brad. Heh.
I'm not interested in playing in any game on Sundays during that time either. Aside from the possibility of picking the Friday night game back up, I doubt I'm going to be playing ANY D&D. Oh, I'll be plotting and planning for my game, though.
In case anyone's wondering, tonight wasn't a disaster, and I'm not upset about killing Bucket (Mike's character). I am honest with my dice rolls, both when they suck as well as when they don't (as in the case of the 12-point crit on the aforementioned level 2 character). *shrug* I think it's just time I let it go for a while. I have been playing, or trying to play, RPGs since I began doing Time & Attendance on Sundays back on October 14, 2000. Yeah, nearly four years. I'm always the one who's trying to get everyone back to the table, even when I wondered if I wanted to. So, I'm going to take at least the next 5-6 weeks off. (And then another week at the end of September, when Brad goes on vacation to Florida.)
There you have it. I've been denying my feelings, and resisting how I feel, for too long. I need a break, and not one created by someone else.*
EDIT (6:30am): After getting a night's sleep, this still seems reasonable. I don't feel that I was in a down mood because of lack of sleep. I have wondered, briefly, if I shouldn't just wait until October to pick back up, since that will get us past Brad's vacation, too. (We could play through October and November, break briefly for the holidays in December, and pick back up in January.) *shrug* It's just a thought.
* - Don't pick nits by saying that Mike's leaving is causing this hiatus. His leaving just made it easier to decide to do. I could keep running if I chose. I choose not.
Hey Anthony,
I don't think I'm going to be playing D&D anymore. I really haven't had the urge to play at all in weeks, and the weeks that I played I missed the stuff that I usually did wen we went over Jason's mom's house (I know, I can't believe it either). Thank you guys very much for letting me play. I warned you about my uber-short attention span :/
I really really appreciate your help. Have fun! See you around at the shop.
~Heather
Yup. She's quit. That means my Sunday group is at five people. (Heather quit, Rick has probably moved away again, and I doubt Stephen has time since he's running his own game now.) Sorry Alex, but I'm not going to add anyone to the game until I'm sure that the game's going to last. Depending on things, I might just take off during the time that Mike's out of town (until around Labor Day), since I've been feeling stressed lately.
While I'm enjoying putting the game together, when it comes to running the thing, I have no patience, and that sucks. I am hypersensitive about rules issues (don't try to help me look it up or quote it to me), people's alignments (as evidenced by the other day's post), and what I perceive as a lack of cooperation in the group (could be entirely my imagination, but I saw signs that it's not). I want to pick things back up, and I want it to be fun for everyone, myself included.
So, for the time being, fear the level 2 barrier. That's where we're stopping at for now. When I hear from Mike that he's back in town from his time spent with his folks in Virginia, then we'll start up again. Looking at a calendar, that puts it around your birthday, Brad. Heh.
I'm not interested in playing in any game on Sundays during that time either. Aside from the possibility of picking the Friday night game back up, I doubt I'm going to be playing ANY D&D. Oh, I'll be plotting and planning for my game, though.
In case anyone's wondering, tonight wasn't a disaster, and I'm not upset about killing Bucket (Mike's character). I am honest with my dice rolls, both when they suck as well as when they don't (as in the case of the 12-point crit on the aforementioned level 2 character). *shrug* I think it's just time I let it go for a while. I have been playing, or trying to play, RPGs since I began doing Time & Attendance on Sundays back on October 14, 2000. Yeah, nearly four years. I'm always the one who's trying to get everyone back to the table, even when I wondered if I wanted to. So, I'm going to take at least the next 5-6 weeks off. (And then another week at the end of September, when Brad goes on vacation to Florida.)
There you have it. I've been denying my feelings, and resisting how I feel, for too long. I need a break, and not one created by someone else.*
EDIT (6:30am): After getting a night's sleep, this still seems reasonable. I don't feel that I was in a down mood because of lack of sleep. I have wondered, briefly, if I shouldn't just wait until October to pick back up, since that will get us past Brad's vacation, too. (We could play through October and November, break briefly for the holidays in December, and pick back up in January.) *shrug* It's just a thought.
* - Don't pick nits by saying that Mike's leaving is causing this hiatus. His leaving just made it easier to decide to do. I could keep running if I chose. I choose not.
