Uncertainty

One thing that I've always wondered about is how I can seemingly turn off my attraction to someone. I wonder if it's a stress-induced reaction to my constant worry over the what ifs I was talking about last night. I only bring this up because I found myself not as enthusiastic about the whole thing as I have been (yet, while I was fixing my car's door handle today, the thought that was going through my head was "my car's one step closer to being a decent car to drive a date around in"). What if I took a day to NOT think about her at all, or limit it as much as possible? I just have a feeling that this is some sort of "distancing/protection" mechanic that my brain cooks up to make it easier to not be attached to someone, and not feel hurt if/when I don't wind up dating the person.

Well, enough of that for the night. Time for bed.