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2007-08-28
So, despite the fact that I have to be at work at 4am CDT, here I am, writing in my journal for the first time in around a month or more. The previous post was very accurate, but I figured if I start typing, things will work themselves out anyway. I've got thoughts spinning around in my mind, and I want to post about each separately, but I realize that -- in some way -- I'm scared of the reaction I might get. Odd, since I told myself years ago that I was recording this information for me primarily. It's nothing like a life-changing event that would change people's opinions of me, either.
In no particular order, I wanted to talk about:
1. A friend's radical life-changing decision, and why there's absolutely nothing wrong with it.
2. A mini-review of Stardust.
3. My own recent-ish feelings that I'm getting farther and farther from my Heart's Desire, despite the fact that I don't know what it is.
4. My thoughts on the World of Warcraft, and the fact that it's almost September.
5. My thoughts on the announcement of 4th Edition by Wizards of the Coast.
Those are the topics. They definitely run from fluff to heavy thoughts. Each feels like they should be their own journal entry, and I think they should. They may not be LONG entries, but they each deserve their own post. I guess I'm just confused about where to start. Perhaps I'm just out of practice, and needed to get primed journal writing again by this meandering entry?
Blah. Might as well begin.
In no particular order, I wanted to talk about:
1. A friend's radical life-changing decision, and why there's absolutely nothing wrong with it.
2. A mini-review of Stardust.
3. My own recent-ish feelings that I'm getting farther and farther from my Heart's Desire, despite the fact that I don't know what it is.
4. My thoughts on the World of Warcraft, and the fact that it's almost September.
5. My thoughts on the announcement of 4th Edition by Wizards of the Coast.
Those are the topics. They definitely run from fluff to heavy thoughts. Each feels like they should be their own journal entry, and I think they should. They may not be LONG entries, but they each deserve their own post. I guess I'm just confused about where to start. Perhaps I'm just out of practice, and needed to get primed journal writing again by this meandering entry?
Blah. Might as well begin.
So, it's rolling around to September again. I cannot explain it, but my WoW addiction declines every September to the point where I either never log in, or /I cancel my account. (Check my entries from years past -- my posting becomes more frequent in that time period, too.) I don't really understand the "why" of it, though. I just start getting tired of playing, and other factors in life become more important.
Granted, I cancelled my account last year because I was moving into my apartment, and just never reactivated the account. I submit, though, that if not for that South Park episode, I'd never have come back to the game. I was quite content without it. It was a novel thing, watching college football on Saturday afternoons, instead of running to sit in front of my computer to play a video game.
It's not to say that I hate the game, even now, but rather that I dislike how much of my time I let it dictate. I don't skip work and I keep the apartment reasonably clean, but nonetheless, I have found myself putting things off that I know I shouldn't. What I'd consider ideal would be to find a way to allocate a particular amount of time to it, per week, and just get up and walk away from it when I've hit that time limit.
What makes this antipathy towards the game so... difficult for me this time, is that I'm in a guild on Moonrunner, with a FANTASTIC group of people. Unlike previous guilds I've had my druid in, I knew these folks prior to joining (albeit from forums -- but we'd talked there for about two years), and I look forward to talking to them and running dungeons with them in-game. Still, I still have the forums to communicate with them..
Perhaps setting a limit for being online for the month of September is the best way to spend time with folks, while still walking away? Or, rather than setting an actual limit, I could allow myself to find other things to do. (For example, this Sunday is the first Castles & Crusades session I'm going to have with my three amigos since early June. Yep, three months between sessions. At this rate, I can keep the campaign going on for DECADES! :)
Well, here's to taking it easy for a month!!
Granted, I cancelled my account last year because I was moving into my apartment, and just never reactivated the account. I submit, though, that if not for that South Park episode, I'd never have come back to the game. I was quite content without it. It was a novel thing, watching college football on Saturday afternoons, instead of running to sit in front of my computer to play a video game.
It's not to say that I hate the game, even now, but rather that I dislike how much of my time I let it dictate. I don't skip work and I keep the apartment reasonably clean, but nonetheless, I have found myself putting things off that I know I shouldn't. What I'd consider ideal would be to find a way to allocate a particular amount of time to it, per week, and just get up and walk away from it when I've hit that time limit.
What makes this antipathy towards the game so... difficult for me this time, is that I'm in a guild on Moonrunner, with a FANTASTIC group of people. Unlike previous guilds I've had my druid in, I knew these folks prior to joining (albeit from forums -- but we'd talked there for about two years), and I look forward to talking to them and running dungeons with them in-game. Still, I still have the forums to communicate with them..
Perhaps setting a limit for being online for the month of September is the best way to spend time with folks, while still walking away? Or, rather than setting an actual limit, I could allow myself to find other things to do. (For example, this Sunday is the first Castles & Crusades session I'm going to have with my three amigos since early June. Yep, three months between sessions. At this rate, I can keep the campaign going on for DECADES! :)
Well, here's to taking it easy for a month!!
