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Hello again,
Last night, I revealed who I was, for all of you to see. Of course, I did it after I spent several hours in WoW, so I was falling asleep by the time I got to the end.
One thing that I did not talk about, yet I feel is important, is where I stand on religion. Simply put, I am a Christian. Oh, I know some diehard folks might say I'm not, as I don't go to church, and -- as I'm not very extroverted -- I'm not really interested in going to church. At least, not yet. I will say, though, that I live the best life that I can, do what's right even if it's not the easiest thing to do, and try to keep in mind why I chose the way I do.
For a while, I had faith issues, and I wasn't sure what you would call me. I began to do some research about various religions, and nothing felt right. Finally, I began to read The Purpose Driven Life, and while I haven't finished it yet *ducks*, it began to answer the nagging questions I had about Christianity. Oh, it hasn't answered them all, and there are some I can see it won't answer, but it's a start.
Now, I also live with my family, since I goofed up a few years back, and let my bills overwhelm me. My mom lives with my dad again (remember, I visited her in San Diego?), and my baby brother moved back from California, too. My new life-view has mellowed me out, and I find it easier to get along with everyone, but especially those in this house. I find myself able to talk about things that I never talked about with them before. Oh, there is a lot of ground left to cover, but the steps are slowly being taken.
And that's me. Mostly. That I can think of now. I think. :)
Now, for content. I've mentioned before about the girl I liked at work. I even mentioned that I took her on a date. Well, I must confess, and this is really strange for me, too. There were two girls I found myself attracted to at the same time. Trying to choose between them was so difficult, that if they were both there, I literally couldn't choose. Of course, I knew I'd never want to try to play them both (not that I know how to do such things anyway). So, I chose Shamora first, thinking that our flirtations might actually be a sign of something significant to come.
I took her out. It was a nice date, in general. However, I left feeling that something wasn't quite right. When I first got home, I thought it was something I did or didn't do or say. After I took her a flower on Wednesday that I had promised to take her, and found it on Thursday, untouched, I realize what I was thinking. She was flattered, and enjoyed my company, but was -- in no way -- interested in me.
The other girl worked yesterday. Jennifer was the first one I got a crush on, and the one who would find ways to initiate simple, innocent bodily contact (and I thought the other girl was the one who liked me!?). Yesterday, she was wearing the most distracting fragrance, so much so that I had to ask it's name. We had a good laugh about it, since it was a rather naughty name. (No, I won't say. Not in public. :) )
I decided that I could do worse than getting to know Jennifer, especially after Shamora's seeming disinterest. So, since I was going to lunch at the same time that Jennifer was getting off work, I asked her to have lunch with me. She did, and it was one of the most pleasant hours I've ever had. We talked for the whole time, and I just couldn't stop smiling as we walked to her car, and then I walked inside. She even said that she hoped we could do that again, and mentioned how we both worked together today. When she realized that our breaks wouldn't coincide (since I usually let her out), she sounded just a little disappointed.
I don't think that I'm being oblivious to signs if I ask Jennifer out on a real date.
Last night, I revealed who I was, for all of you to see. Of course, I did it after I spent several hours in WoW, so I was falling asleep by the time I got to the end.
One thing that I did not talk about, yet I feel is important, is where I stand on religion. Simply put, I am a Christian. Oh, I know some diehard folks might say I'm not, as I don't go to church, and -- as I'm not very extroverted -- I'm not really interested in going to church. At least, not yet. I will say, though, that I live the best life that I can, do what's right even if it's not the easiest thing to do, and try to keep in mind why I chose the way I do.
For a while, I had faith issues, and I wasn't sure what you would call me. I began to do some research about various religions, and nothing felt right. Finally, I began to read The Purpose Driven Life, and while I haven't finished it yet *ducks*, it began to answer the nagging questions I had about Christianity. Oh, it hasn't answered them all, and there are some I can see it won't answer, but it's a start.
Now, I also live with my family, since I goofed up a few years back, and let my bills overwhelm me. My mom lives with my dad again (remember, I visited her in San Diego?), and my baby brother moved back from California, too. My new life-view has mellowed me out, and I find it easier to get along with everyone, but especially those in this house. I find myself able to talk about things that I never talked about with them before. Oh, there is a lot of ground left to cover, but the steps are slowly being taken.
And that's me. Mostly. That I can think of now. I think. :)
Now, for content. I've mentioned before about the girl I liked at work. I even mentioned that I took her on a date. Well, I must confess, and this is really strange for me, too. There were two girls I found myself attracted to at the same time. Trying to choose between them was so difficult, that if they were both there, I literally couldn't choose. Of course, I knew I'd never want to try to play them both (not that I know how to do such things anyway). So, I chose Shamora first, thinking that our flirtations might actually be a sign of something significant to come.
I took her out. It was a nice date, in general. However, I left feeling that something wasn't quite right. When I first got home, I thought it was something I did or didn't do or say. After I took her a flower on Wednesday that I had promised to take her, and found it on Thursday, untouched, I realize what I was thinking. She was flattered, and enjoyed my company, but was -- in no way -- interested in me.
The other girl worked yesterday. Jennifer was the first one I got a crush on, and the one who would find ways to initiate simple, innocent bodily contact (and I thought the other girl was the one who liked me!?). Yesterday, she was wearing the most distracting fragrance, so much so that I had to ask it's name. We had a good laugh about it, since it was a rather naughty name. (No, I won't say. Not in public. :) )
I decided that I could do worse than getting to know Jennifer, especially after Shamora's seeming disinterest. So, since I was going to lunch at the same time that Jennifer was getting off work, I asked her to have lunch with me. She did, and it was one of the most pleasant hours I've ever had. We talked for the whole time, and I just couldn't stop smiling as we walked to her car, and then I walked inside. She even said that she hoped we could do that again, and mentioned how we both worked together today. When she realized that our breaks wouldn't coincide (since I usually let her out), she sounded just a little disappointed.
I don't think that I'm being oblivious to signs if I ask Jennifer out on a real date.
