tek2way: Movie - John Preston (Movie - John Preston)
I am under no delusion that I'm going to even come close to the level of constant journaling I did back in 2002-2005. I still want to at least "stick" with this, though. It feels more... hmm... "genuine" than modern social media, which seems to be all memes.

So how am I doing? Here's a rundown, I guess, since I feel kinda alien even to myself these days.

    Tony in 2023:
  • In November 2022, I got the urge to finish watching Kimagure Orange Road again, which I started in 2019. Doing so unlocked the floodgates of nostalgia, and I have been watching anime again, ever since. 80-90% is old stuff (dating back at least 20 years, and some even goes back 40 years). A list of series includes:
    • Super Dimension Fortress Macross TV (1982)/Do You Remember Love? Movie (1984)

    • Oh My Goddess! OVA (1993)/ Ah! My Goddess Movie (2000)

    • Bakuretsu (Sorcerer) Hunters (1995)

    • Urusei Yatsura (1981)

    • Tenchi Muyo (1992)/Tenchi Universe (1995)/Movies 1 and 3 (1996 & 1999)

    • Ranma 1/2 TV (1989)

    • Sailor Moon (1993)

    • Neon Genesis Evangelion (through End of Evangelion movie) (1995)

    • Slayers (1995)

    • ..and many more (Spy x Family is a favorite from this decade, at least :) ).

  • In November 2022, I also finally sat down and listened to a song by Babymetal (specifically, a live video where they performed a cover medley of Painkiller/Breaking the Law with Rob Halford). I was struck by just how much fun it was to listen to them. I would later describe Babymetal's music as "where my love of anime, Jpop, and metal intersects". I'm going to see them in Nashville in September. Alone. I'm totally excited and scared out of my mind. :)


  • I've been listening to a lot less metal over all this year. I still like metal, but it doesn't quite hit me the same as it used to. I guess that's okay, but it's certainly not what I expected. I'm sure that someone better-versed in trauma responses will make an observation about not "Needing" it anymore, since a lot that used to cause me turmoil is no longer a thing (though I still have plenty of issues).


  • I got Covid-19 in January, and wound up having to go to the emergency room as a result, since I couldn't breathe. While there, I learned I had Atrial Fibrillation (Afib), Heart Failure, and Diabetes Type II. I quit vaping, and began studiously tracking my food intake to keep my sodium and carbohydrates within reasonable parameters. I also finally found a primary care doctor, and began trying to take care of myself. As of July 2023, my A1C is down to 5.2 from January's 10.7, my heart ejection fraction is back to normal, and I've lost literally 100 lbs. I'm not done, yet, but the progress makes me happy.


  • I lost my job of 2 years, but was rehired by the company that I worked for from 5 years ago until 2 years ago (gotta love corporate shuffling). I will withhold excitement for when I see a paycheck stub, but it looks like I'm making more money.


  • My father passed away on June 6, at 83 years old. I'm going to miss the old man, and I wish I had taken more time to talk to him, but there was no animosity -- I think we both realized that I had turned out like him after all.


  • I have lost a lot of my desire to play RPGs. Much like metal, it just doesn't grab me like it once did. I still like reading about games, and I love watching documentaries about the history of the game. The Secrets of Blackmoor is rather good.


Well, I guess that's it for now. Take care, anyone who happened to stumble on this journal. With luck, I'll return in a day or two.
tek2way: (Anime - Spy x Family)
So, here I am, again.

I was struck by a monumental wave of nostalgia this evening, and the rabbit hole it invariably created ultimately led to Dreamwidth, my migrated LJ, a bunch of music that I listened to regularly some twenty years ago, and a page that showed that Semagic is working for Dreamwidth again.

I don't anticipate anyone reading these entries, because social media in its current state is all the rage. So this is for me, first and foremost, but I won't yell at anyone who peeks in on what shows up here from time to time.
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I just finished watching the original Macross series.

I'm at a loss for words. I miss it already. 
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tek2way: (Anime - Ayukawa)
So, the store I work at has a system in place that tells us -- and customers -- how many lanes we should have open at any given time. It's been a struggle at times, trying to meet the expectations of corporate, and my most recent serious bout of depression stemmed from the fact that every time I walked into my store, the manager repeatedly got on me about how we weren't making our metric in it. Obviously, that wasn't the sole reason for the depression, but it certainly didn't help.

I walked into the store on Sunday, expecting serious traffic thanks to the holiday, and wasn't disappointed. However, the managers were on the front, watching the traffic and helping to direct it (something that is expected of them ever since we got the system, but hardly ever see them involved).

Well, when I left today, we were on track to make our metric for the FOURTH day in a row! To say I'm pleased is something of an understatement. You see, not only does it mean that I won't hear from my manager about how we're not doing what we should, it is also an indication that the new approach is working, and that I have some sort of help in trying to make it.

Isn't it amazing how having some help can improve things for us?



In other news, I've been seriously diving back into my love of anime. I've picked up Oh My Goddess (OVA and movie), Tenchi Muyo (original OVA and most recent OVA), Macross Plus, and the Kimagure Orange Road TV series box set.

The KOR TV set is the highlight of them all, as it's an anime that I've loved since I borrowed the OVA series from Jason at Triple Play (now, it's Comic Cellar) way back in 1993 or so. Back in 1999, I went in halves with Kevin to help AnimEigo fund their production of the TV series on VHS/LD. He and I watched the series, and loved every minute of it. It also helped the OVA series -- which came out after the TV series -- make a lot more sense.

Over time, I wound up selling my half to him to cover a debt I owed him, and I told myself I'd get around to picking it up again, but 12 VHS tapes were quite an investment. I'd eventually relegate the idea to the back of my mind, as a took a step back from anime in general, due to a dearth of titles that held my interest. (Honestly, having formats switch from VHS to DVD also dampened my enthusiasm.)

Years later, I'd discover that the whole thing was released on DVD, but that the company releasing it lost their license soon after. I began to watch eBay, hoping to find it for a reasonable price, but individual discs in the 12 volume series (they kept the episode breakdown to how the VHS tapes were) were as much as $60-80 each, and the whole set was selling for $400+. I sighed, kept it as a saved search, and gave up any real hope for procuring it.

That's when this current anime binge comes into play. I was ordering a couple of anime from Amazon, when I searched for Kimagure Orange Road on a lark. One of the results was the box set for sale from a Goodwill in Seattle... for $180. That was half what the individual discs might've cost new, and $75 cheaper than I found the box set new, to say nothing of regular online prices.

I just finished episode 2, and I'm quite pleased to have found it. There are a lot of memories tied up in this series for me, and I am going to enjoy rediscovering each and every one as I work my way through the show.
tek2way: (Anime - UN Spacy)
So, in the interest of beating a dead horse, I'm going to talk about anime again today.

You see, I am (re)discovering the unbridled joy that came from watching it, particularly the stuff that I was into when I was in my late teens and early 20s (Ranma 1/2, Tenchi Muyo, Kimagure Orange Road, Macross, Bubblegum Crisis, and similar). Only this time, I don't think I have any fucks to give for anyone who might naysay my choice of pastimes. That's not to say that I was overly worried then, but on my way home, listening to Two-Mix in my car, I found myself saying firmly, "I'm an anime fan. I'm an otaku. I'm a geek. I'm even a metalhead. I do not fear fandom labels, because they're the things I like, and --"

That's when I had to make the left turn, and focused on the oncoming traffic instead. :)

Regardless, though, there was a liberating feeling to that thought, and I liked it. I'm a Star Wars fan. I'm an RPG fan. I'm a gaming (role-playing, board, card, video) fan. I'm a Brandon Sanderson fan. I'm a sci-fi fan. I'm a Game of Thrones fan. I'm a Tolkien fan. I'm a Harry Potter fan. I'm a Marvel Universe fan. I'm also a DC Universe fan. I'm a fan of Neil Gaiman, and am generally in love with the cast of characters from his various books. I'm a music fan. I'm a fan of Iron Maiden. I'm a fan of Nightwish. I'm a fan of Helloween. I'm a fan of Sarah Brightman, Hayley Westenra, Josh Groban, Loreena McKennitt, and Enya.

In some small way, listening to anime music (and watching anime) has reminded me that it's okay to like the things I do, no matter what society has decided is appropriate for someone my age. For gods' sakes, if I was to truly measure myself by society's standards, I really would be planning to end it all, because a car is about the only "grown up" thing I can say I've "accomplished". House? Nope. "Grown-up" job making enough to support my family? Nope. Significant other? Nope. Kids? Absolutely not.

All this from listening to anime soundtrack music? Oddly, yes, more or less. You see, some of this has come from self-reflection since that thought, but the principle still applies. I also want to stress that I'm in no way suddenly "better", and free from my depression and anxiety. First, today was a stressful work day, but I was able to manage it, and I never got overwhelmed. Second, the pragmatic side of me reasons that this could be -- to use older parlance with which I'm at least passingly familiar -- a manic mood, or "high", that's a counterpoint to the abysmal low I was living with last weekend. I suppose that the main thing is that I'm not questioning it.

I'm off Monday. I am going to get up, pick up my Kimagure Orange Road TV box set from the post office, get my brother and take him to replace his cell phone, and then I'm going to run by Best Buy and pick up an external DVD/CD-RW. I considered going for a Blu-Ray drive, but 1) my anime is only DVD, 2) a DVD drive is over half as cheap as the Blu-Ray player, and 3) the Blu-Ray player needed USB 3.0 to run, and I only have one port for that (which is given over to my 1TB HDD, which would run horribly on USB 2.0).



P.S.: It doesn't hurt my mood at all, that management has responded to my more resolute and positive outlook by being more positive and understanding. Basically, the worse I'm doing on an emotional and mental level, the less understanding and the more hurtful they get. Yeah, this place does *NOT* deserve my loyalty at all.

Next up: taking stock of what all I have, and weeding out what I don't need/want. However, unlike last time, I'm going to keep it all, but separate it from the main collection. Then, if I still am disinterested in it in, say, six months, then I'll see about selling it.

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